Monday, 30 September 2013

Sitting on the kitchen floor

Sitting on the kitchen floor. I've just come back from my "leaving do". I'm now unemployed. 

I guess the question is "how do I feel?". To be honest I don't know. It changes from moment to moment.

I feel bitter that after 7 1/2 years at my company so few people made an effort to say goodbye. Even my last 2 managers.

I feel touched by some of the messages from those that did make the time.

I feel so so sad to say goodbye to people who I will inevitably lose touch with.

I feel excited about what the future might hold.

I feel regret for missed opportunities.

I feel scared for my new world and I fear going to bed because of what will be my life when I wake up.

I'm listening to music because I don't want to be alone with me. I'm not sure I want to be me right now. I definitely don't want to be alone.

But tomorrow is a new day. A bright day. I will pick myself up off the floor. I will find the strength and I will turn the page to write the new chapter of my life.

Please forgive me if I shed some tears first

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