Monday was my due date by scans. No baby
Tuesday was my due date by ovulation. No baby
Wednesday was my due date by last period. No baby
It’s now Saturday and guess what? No baby!
I know I’m still in the normal window, but each morning when I wake up and realise I’m still not in labour I feel a wave of disappointment. I also know that there is a limit to how much longer I will be pregnant, as much as some part of my brain keeps telling me I might be pregnant forever or that despite the scans etc that I might be having a phantom pregnancy.
One of the things I’m finding most frustrating is everyone’s advice that I should enjoy sleeping, relaxing, having time to myself etc. Yes I know that all these things will be in very short supply when the baby gets here but I’m bored, fed up with my own company, uncomfortable sitting around and can only sleep for so much of the day. Plus I’m convinced that sleep doesn’t work like money: I can’t stockpile a supply of it to get me through the next 18 years. Isn’t it worse if you are sleeping 12 hours a day and then get cut down to 2, than if you are used to managing on less sleep? (I would note I haven’t managed to stockpile money either)
I’m trying to make the most of this time, I really am, but there are only so many people I know who are free during the day and only so many times I can clean the house. I’ve tried knitting too, but I can only do a maximum of 4 rows of my blanket before my back gets to the point where I have to move.
I’m no good at waiting (I think I may have mentioned that before).
It appears my family and friends aren’t very good at waiting either. I’ve had several calls from family asking if anything has happened yet. I’m tempted to say “yes, you have a granddaughter, she was born a week ago we just forgot to tell you. It’s just as well you called”.
My body is continuing to gear up for the birth. I’ve had twinges in my lower belly for a week and a half now. They are gradually getting stronger, but no contractions (or other signs of labour). I’ve had 2 lots of acupuncture where the acupuncturist has been working on my points to encourage the baby to come, and I have been massaging these points myself in between sessions.
One thing is clear: baby doesn’t want to come out yet.